cant stay long here but im just letting you know im alive and well... My pregnancy turned out to be high risk due to some complications i had but i believe the baby is allright...it weights almost 3kg and he's at least 45cm long, i dont know where is he living since i barely have a belly (all my friends and family say "omgg you look like if you had 6 or 7 months!") and doctors say i should be giving birth in 20 days LOL i cant fucking believe it, im in awe....im like one of those moms who didnt knew they were pregnant (not like that exactly of course...those woman are like "i had my baby while i was pooping" i did started to "feel" the baby a month ago after i found out) i dont have stretch marks and i have gained like 9kg wich is good...3 kg in the last 3 months.
He's expected to be here by sept 11...sad day for american people
i really hope he comes a day before or after u_u maybe he'll be born for sept 16 (mexican revolution n_n) i dunno. It'll be natural birth (im SO SO SO scared
) and he's obviously a boy
doesnt have name yet (it took me by surprise and my husband wants really awful names for him (like Patroclo, teobaldo...eww...god forbbid LOL)...i wanted him to be called LOGAN but my husband says im crazy because its wolverine's name LOL i dont care...i'll fight for him to be named Logan or Alexander (because of Alexander the great of course, but in spanish: alejandro)
i dont have pictures of me because i look fat an ugly, and wont put up pictures of the baby cause he doesnt have any shape yet LOL (at least i cant find it and i have had 2 ultrasounds) im getting a 3d soon, and i will for sure put a pic here
...well, anyway, here it goes a pic (its his belly according to my gynecologist...that guy has TOO MUCH imagination)[link]
i'll try to take a pic of me in wich i dont look like a whale but i cant promise anything =O
The baby moves so much, it feels so weird and sometimes you can touch his feet (it's the weirdest sensation in the whole wide world but its marvelous) and they're so tiny...he just feels my hand pushing his feet and he suddenly retracts it like "OMGGG WHO'S TOUCHING MY TINY FEET, CREEPS GET AWAY!) and i feel like he has a special bond with his dad...when i talk to him he barely responds, but once my husband gets home he knows and starts kicking and moving like YAY! DADDY IS HOME... its so beautiful.
I have been feeling down for sure (hormons, not being able to draw because i cant stay in the computer more than 20 mins and i have to rest (doctors say) and things in life....but mostly hormons i believe), this year has been hard and the previous one was a very sad year, so...i had a hard time recovering, it took me a lot to realize i have so much good things around me.
I knew so much great people this year, my friends from the dog's shelter are awesome, such wonderful people...they have supported me like you have no idea, specially one of them, she has been by my side in ways i thought no one ever would be again, i have found too much kindness arround me and my friends who were away due to school and careers are now back in town...its so wonderful! i got to see again 2 of my best of friends im so happy, i felt so alone for so long and having them here is just a blessing, specially with the baby...he has recieved SO MUCH PRESENTS! and from people i never EVER expected anything...this boy is really loved by too much people (or at least i am)...so many of them have been too generous with me, and i havent done anything special but being a quiet version of myself (not depressed, just quiet), in fact i think i have been relentless to make friendship since a long time, maybe thats why i have so many people with me...because i havent been seeking and god or someone wanted to let me know i wasnt alone at all....wherever i look there's people holding my hand...its honestly incredible...and i could say those people want something for me but i have nothing tu offer exept my friendship and thats awesome...because i cant find a reason of why they should be so kind, exept for the fact that they really like me and think of me like a person who's worth an effort... I needed that so badly but i last year made a promess to myself to not beg for it, i keept it and i think it worked because people saw something in me i didnt saw before..that im worthy of friendship, like i allways knew i was (because i could be anything but im a good friend, even when sometimes doesnt seem like it).
Anyway, everything is taking shape now, because it felt like a riot months ago...me and my husband painted our house turquois and white, fixed the windows, fixed our marriage and life, i started making things for myself.
Life is good. My dogs are awesome, i love them too much....
Coco, aluche and Sirius are just great. And our new dog "pinto" is too :3 he's the most loyal guardian and smartest dog on earth, my husband found him on the streets and took him to live with us and they are together all day.[link]
I have rescued many dogs and gave for adoption too, they are in good places now and that makes me really happy...i dunno :3 this year has been a very productive year for me, maybe not professionaly and i havent done anything in the illustration fileld to feel very proud about but my personal life is fullfilling and it makes me happy.
Oh, and lastly but not less important, i was accepted as a tattoo aprentice by a very good tattoo artist
so...i guess i'll be tattooing in a year or so...im so excited, once the baby is born and i get my routine i'll start the internship, cant wait! i'll get my first tattoo for freeee wich is awesomeeee...i cant decide between a Vegvisir (its a viking compass, so you can find your way home , quoting: Vegvisir means "direction sign" or "see the way". This charm helps prevent one from getting lost. It is a "brun rune" or sea charm). ....im a HUGE Bjork´s fan and and when i saw her tattoo and searched for the meaning i knew it was the one i wanted, i had the idea of gettin a vergina sun in my wrist because it was Alexander the great symbol (its a macedonian symbol, and its actually on the macedonian flag) and it also has to do with the 12 greek gods...the vegvisir is also a kind of a 12 point star...so i guess i can work with an idea that mixes all those great symbols.
or i'll get an Aegishjalmur (helm of awe) wich is a runic charm ('protection and irresistibility in battle' -means)
or maybe both LOL i dunno.
will be back soon with more news i guess, and im so sorry for being so absent n_n i cant stay much here.
Will leave you with this song, its so pretty and it says so much about how i feel [link]